It's All Fun and Games Until Somebody Loses an 'I'
Some of you may have noticed that I haven’t uploaded a video in a couple of weeks. I’m writing now to ask you to be patient with me and to tell you that I’m doing okay, not to worry. In this letter to you I’d like to explain a few things and give you a peek into my past and present. I’ve been asked many times about my research methods, and it’s been speculated here and there on the internet that I must have partners because, quote, “there’s no way she can do that all by herself.” Well, here’s the truth.
I do work alone and except for the odd article here and there that people have sent me via email I get my own leads and follow my own instincts to gather every piece of information that I use in my videos. I make all the graphics and do all the editing. Personally I don’t see why this is so unbelievable to anyone. I think the reason it may seem so is because I can draw on a wealth of material quite quickly and I have a wide range of knowledge in a variety of subject areas across a fairly long span of history. This is because of my past habits, not necessarily because of any unique methods of research.
Before I began posting videos in about March 2016 I had been an artist – a painter. Visual artists can tell you that this work is somewhat meditative and as such it is conducive to learning. While my hands and a part of my brain were occupied by the canvas I would listen to audiobooks, interviews and lectures on a wide variety of topics. It so happened that I had always been interested in ‘high weirdness’ so at first those were the topics I gravitated to before moving on to try to gain a deeper understanding of the world around me.
But I have to go back in time for a minute.
As a girl of 12 or 13 I read Erich Von Daniken’s Chariots of the Gods which blew my mind. A couple of years later I got to hear a friend’s family discussions about the unusual elements of the Kennedy Assassination and the Moon Landings which introduced me to the idea that recent history might not be what it seems. Part of my university education alerted me to the various ways in which ‘science’ had been and continued to be used to shape cultures and societies (this was before universities became indoctrination centers for the official narratives). My curiosity was always active, but after I left school and became a mother a lot of that got put on the back burner as my time and energy were monopolized by full time work, home maintenance and child rearing.
When my child got a little older and no longer needed (nor wanted) much of my attention I took up painting again and combined this with the wonders of the internet. I began with forbidden archeology and the mysteries of Egypt – these were fascinating to me as I marveled at all that was hidden from mainstream education. Most of all I wondered why. Why was the scope of education so repetitive and boring when there were so many things they could be bringing to students!?
After I ventured down those paths I began to look at the terror attacks of 9/11.
9/11 led me somehow to MKUltra, and then the Franklin Cover-Up. Then Operation Paperclip, Aaron Russo, Bill Cooper, Max Igan, Alex Jones, Central Banking, etc etc. In short I started to see the Matrix, and was beginning to learn how to read it.
After I gorged myself on those topics I went deeper and began listening to speakers and lecturers in biology, psychology, history, economics, religion, mathematics, energy – these things were often way above my head but over the years I learned the vocabulary, then the theories, the findings and finally could see the interconnectedness of these disciplines. In fact I began to feel that I saw the interconnectedness better than any of the individual specialists I was learning from. They were siloed, myopic. I wasn’t.
The frustration I began to encounter was that I had absolutely nowhere to discuss any of this. Inside I was very well read and had so many intellectual curiosities but in day-to-day life I was Mom, wife, daughter, pal, office drone who should know her place and stop talking about “weird, boring, irrelevant scary” things and stick to picking out tiles for the new bathroom or admiring the tiles someone else had recently installed.
Thankfully at that time I still found common ground with most people in my life. Indeed we *could* still talk about bathroom tiles … or vacations, movies, music, cooking, home renovation projects, etc without any trouble. For a long while I managed my ‘double life’ keeping my research life private like a spy would have to do but still enjoying the company of friends, family and society.
As I learned more I could see more patterns - I could project into the future, so to speak. That’s when things became troublesome for me. I felt I could see where society was heading and this naturally affected the way I planned, the way I communicated. It put up barriers between me and the people around me though I wasn’t really aware of it at the time. All I knew was that sometimes, for seemingly no reason, I would trigger people into blank stares or shock or (worst of all) “concern” for my well being. You see, I kept forgetting that they didn’t know the things I knew. I must have sounded like an alien to them, or a stranger, or even just a worry wart who was harshing their mellow instead of cheering them on for taking out a reverse mortgage (or some such dangerous credit instrument.)
Believe me, many were the times I’d stop and ask myself if I was the problem. Was I being indoctrinated into some kind of cult or being groomed into semi-insanity through the media I was consuming? Because although I felt perfectly sane I could feel a shift happening – a divide opening up between myself and the culture I’d always lived in and thrived on. To this day I perform these reality checks. I ask “What do I know *for sure?*” Back then the answers ranged from “I know house prices are skyrocketing for no valid reason and this is Big Trouble.” Or “I know the culture is beginning to become toxic.” Or “I know they are actively eliminating Christianity from the public sphere.” Or “I know they are lying about 9/11 and if they’ll lie about that what won’t they lie about?” I also knew that 99% of the people around me couldn’t see any of that, and they didn’t want to see.
In 2022, amid all the noise and fearmongering the answer which keeps me grounded is:
“I know that they are trying to force people to take an experimental genetic therapy and I know they are censoring a great deal of information and opinion.”
That’s enough for me to understand that my questioning mind is still sane and my concern is righteous.
Okay – what does any of this have to do with me not producing videos at the moment?
The problem is twofold.
1. It’s been years now since I have had the chance to paint, listen and learn.
Over the past 4 years my well of inspiration has run dry as I’ve chased the news and put together timely videos. When I began publishing deep dives I was still nourished by all those years of immersing myself in the words and ideas of learned people combined with my original findings and linkages. Now, I am saturated by mere sound bites –opinion columns, tweets and tabloid videos. Those are not nourishment, those are vending machine snacks. Without wanting to sound over-dramatic the word that comes to mind when I think about all of this is ‘poisoned.’
In short: I first need to detox, then take time to feed my mind, soul and body better intellectual and spiritual food. I am doing that now and loving it. (see pic for my current endeavours)
2. Once again I seem to be alone in my understanding of what’s going on. That’s not to say that I’m right and everyone else is wrong, it’s meant to say that my own perspective on it is not the same as others.’ More and more lately my ‘take’ on things is at odds with the general consensus on every side. Further, since I am a genuine person who doesn’t like to paper-over my feelings for the sake of going-along, I am finding it difficult to produce work that will inform/uplift my audience. Judging from the letters I receive I don’t believe people need any more speculation or bad news and in some ways that’s all I’d have to offer if I were to go online with my thoughts. In short: I don’t know what to say or how to say it right now.
Finally I will admit that there are personal reasons why I am silent at the moment. I would like to live my life in accordance with my inner guidance system but for various reasons I can’t move forward and I’m struggling to chart a course. I am working to overcome that but man oh man these are some tricky waters to navigate. Some days I feel I might drown, others I sail on calm seas. I’m sure you all share this experience.
I will return with videos as soon as I can.
In the meantime I’m keeping my website updated with material from around the internet and hope you’ll find those items informative and interesting.
God bless you all.
Polly
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TampaCityGirl
02 Feb 2022
A confirmation for me on my thoughts of what was going on in this world was when Dr. Carrie Madej stated back in 2014 she went to secret meetings about taking control over humanity by TRANSHUMANISM. They want to control our minds to think like they do. They can do this with the advanced technology today and they are doing it through vaccines. She has been studying vaccines since she was 16. She litterly broke down fighting back her tears when explaining what was in these Covid vaccines. Something you really need to witness to grasp her sincerity. They litterly want to turn us into cyborgs via the vaccines and be attached to the system and create a matrix. At these meetings CNN YouTube etc… were there. After 3 meetings she decided she didn’t want to be a part of it. I’ve been following Dr. Madej for a year and she’s as legit as can be as crazy as all this sounds. She thinks that 5g will play a part in connecting our bodies to the internet (matrix). Before people will believe this it will be too late. This is literally Psyfy coming to reality and again they have all the technology to do it. They’ve been working on this for years. The point of this Polly it’s okay to take a break but it’s still important to try and wake people up before time runs out. I think when Truth Social comes out we will be able to inform the public better and not be shadow banned or deleted like Twitter.
SN
01 Feb 2022
Huge huge fan, Ms St Georges. Of course you need a break. The world will not end if you withdraw from the public sphere. And the rest of us have many enlightened sources, thank god, from which to draw for information, updates, revelations. The world is indeed waking up, and you have been playing your part in sounding the bugle of truth, Above all, be kind to your beloved child. Your public platform is not the place to chide them (they don't want me).... To be gifted a child(ren) to raise is a precious privilege. Children are not there to feed our emotional needs, but quite the reverse.
God bless you.
God bless you.
Jennifer Ayres
01 Feb 2022
Polly, you are definitely not alone, and I know what it is like to only be able to offer bad news. Worse things are yet to unfold I believe and the only thing we can do is warn people to get prepared and stay prepared. All life is only temporary here anyhow for all people. Please keep things in perspective. We fight in our parts and God orchestrates the rest. Step-by-step, Christian civilization must be rebuilt but that requires a true repentance and return to Godly living. That's on the people. They must choose it. Take a break. Enjoy the love your country is rediscovering. I pray this love spreads like a raging fire faster than the enemy's fires. Evil may strike, but our Father always has the last word. Viva Cristo Rey! 🕊️🙏
Greg
31 Jan 2022
Polly, Thank you for your update and the suggested reading in your pic. I recognize the need to step back and regroup. Your videos have enthralled and inspired me. In my opinion, for what its worth, your depth of knowledge and intuitive pattern recognition make you one of the strongest voices for truth we have. I look forward to your future work and will continue to glean nuggets from your previous work. Stay well and God Bless.
June
31 Jan 2022
Oh man can I ever relate to this: "The frustration I began to encounter was that I had absolutely nowhere to discuss any of this." Blank stares, concern-trolls and all.
I did not know you were an artist. Hmm. Art, parallel economy, restoring your soul... It all goes together. Thank you for taking the time to share about yourself. I have been learning from and enjoying your work since 2018.
My husband is an artist, and we have been happily surprised by the people we are able to connect with when we go out to the small art markets to sell his work. We get to plant seeds of wonder, and hand out "red-pills" so to speak, while the people who show up sometimes teach us new things as well.
I don't think this is supposed to be advice. I know you aren't seeking any. But I know how hard it can be to find people who are not living in fear. People who are just continuing to live their lives and not be part of the "new normal". I hope you find community and friendship. At least as much as you need. Being a truth seeker is by nature a very lonely journey because most people prefer their own delusions over the truth. Thank God for Mr. St. George, and for my husband, we are not alone on our journeys.
I did not know you were an artist. Hmm. Art, parallel economy, restoring your soul... It all goes together. Thank you for taking the time to share about yourself. I have been learning from and enjoying your work since 2018.
My husband is an artist, and we have been happily surprised by the people we are able to connect with when we go out to the small art markets to sell his work. We get to plant seeds of wonder, and hand out "red-pills" so to speak, while the people who show up sometimes teach us new things as well.
I don't think this is supposed to be advice. I know you aren't seeking any. But I know how hard it can be to find people who are not living in fear. People who are just continuing to live their lives and not be part of the "new normal". I hope you find community and friendship. At least as much as you need. Being a truth seeker is by nature a very lonely journey because most people prefer their own delusions over the truth. Thank God for Mr. St. George, and for my husband, we are not alone on our journeys.
Francesca Groves
31 Jan 2022
Dearest Polly - Canadian ol' gal here.....I think I'm just down the highway from ya. (I stood on the bridge this past Thursday, on the Don Mills overpass, hooting and hollering!) I too have gone down a black hole, in the past decade or so. I am a passionate person who's passionate about ideas. 9/11 was also the great shift for me. I felt so very alone. And also, a dear Canadian friend (now passed away) took the time to open my mind to what is the Federal Reserve. He had been a founding member of COMER (Canadian Organization for Monetary Economic Reform). He and his pals had sued the Canadian govt (using good ol' Rocco Galati) for not using what was legally allowable; We as Canadian citizens - who own the Bank of Canada, are allowed to borrow money, at zero percent, for the cost of infrastructure, etc. Since Papa Trudeau, we have not done this.
(I'm old enough to remember John Diefenbaker. I heard that his federal govt was debt-free!)
Rocco had to give up his fight at the Supreme Court level. The funds had run out. So.....It's pretty lonesome over here in Crazy Town! I have lost a number of friends over the years. Supposed to chat about mundane things (yup...like choices of floor tiles and such) and not make people feel uncomfortable. It has hit a crescendo in the last 2 years. Two friends slammed the phone in my ear when I tried to have a reasonable conversation on the efficacy of the jab. Whew! Such an eye-opener! Know that I am so very grateful to you, Polly. Be well!
(I'm old enough to remember John Diefenbaker. I heard that his federal govt was debt-free!)
Rocco had to give up his fight at the Supreme Court level. The funds had run out. So.....It's pretty lonesome over here in Crazy Town! I have lost a number of friends over the years. Supposed to chat about mundane things (yup...like choices of floor tiles and such) and not make people feel uncomfortable. It has hit a crescendo in the last 2 years. Two friends slammed the phone in my ear when I tried to have a reasonable conversation on the efficacy of the jab. Whew! Such an eye-opener! Know that I am so very grateful to you, Polly. Be well!