It's All Fun and Games Until Somebody Loses an 'I'
Some of you may have noticed that I haven’t uploaded a video in a couple of weeks. I’m writing now to ask you to be patient with me and to tell you that I’m doing okay, not to worry. In this letter to you I’d like to explain a few things and give you a peek into my past and present. I’ve been asked many times about my research methods, and it’s been speculated here and there on the internet that I must have partners because, quote, “there’s no way she can do that all by herself.” Well, here’s the truth.
I do work alone and except for the odd article here and there that people have sent me via email I get my own leads and follow my own instincts to gather every piece of information that I use in my videos. I make all the graphics and do all the editing. Personally I don’t see why this is so unbelievable to anyone. I think the reason it may seem so is because I can draw on a wealth of material quite quickly and I have a wide range of knowledge in a variety of subject areas across a fairly long span of history. This is because of my past habits, not necessarily because of any unique methods of research.
Before I began posting videos in about March 2016 I had been an artist – a painter. Visual artists can tell you that this work is somewhat meditative and as such it is conducive to learning. While my hands and a part of my brain were occupied by the canvas I would listen to audiobooks, interviews and lectures on a wide variety of topics. It so happened that I had always been interested in ‘high weirdness’ so at first those were the topics I gravitated to before moving on to try to gain a deeper understanding of the world around me.
But I have to go back in time for a minute.
As a girl of 12 or 13 I read Erich Von Daniken’s Chariots of the Gods which blew my mind. A couple of years later I got to hear a friend’s family discussions about the unusual elements of the Kennedy Assassination and the Moon Landings which introduced me to the idea that recent history might not be what it seems. Part of my university education alerted me to the various ways in which ‘science’ had been and continued to be used to shape cultures and societies (this was before universities became indoctrination centers for the official narratives). My curiosity was always active, but after I left school and became a mother a lot of that got put on the back burner as my time and energy were monopolized by full time work, home maintenance and child rearing.
When my child got a little older and no longer needed (nor wanted) much of my attention I took up painting again and combined this with the wonders of the internet. I began with forbidden archeology and the mysteries of Egypt – these were fascinating to me as I marveled at all that was hidden from mainstream education. Most of all I wondered why. Why was the scope of education so repetitive and boring when there were so many things they could be bringing to students!?
After I ventured down those paths I began to look at the terror attacks of 9/11.
9/11 led me somehow to MKUltra, and then the Franklin Cover-Up. Then Operation Paperclip, Aaron Russo, Bill Cooper, Max Igan, Alex Jones, Central Banking, etc etc. In short I started to see the Matrix, and was beginning to learn how to read it.
After I gorged myself on those topics I went deeper and began listening to speakers and lecturers in biology, psychology, history, economics, religion, mathematics, energy – these things were often way above my head but over the years I learned the vocabulary, then the theories, the findings and finally could see the interconnectedness of these disciplines. In fact I began to feel that I saw the interconnectedness better than any of the individual specialists I was learning from. They were siloed, myopic. I wasn’t.
The frustration I began to encounter was that I had absolutely nowhere to discuss any of this. Inside I was very well read and had so many intellectual curiosities but in day-to-day life I was Mom, wife, daughter, pal, office drone who should know her place and stop talking about “weird, boring, irrelevant scary” things and stick to picking out tiles for the new bathroom or admiring the tiles someone else had recently installed.
Thankfully at that time I still found common ground with most people in my life. Indeed we *could* still talk about bathroom tiles … or vacations, movies, music, cooking, home renovation projects, etc without any trouble. For a long while I managed my ‘double life’ keeping my research life private like a spy would have to do but still enjoying the company of friends, family and society.
As I learned more I could see more patterns - I could project into the future, so to speak. That’s when things became troublesome for me. I felt I could see where society was heading and this naturally affected the way I planned, the way I communicated. It put up barriers between me and the people around me though I wasn’t really aware of it at the time. All I knew was that sometimes, for seemingly no reason, I would trigger people into blank stares or shock or (worst of all) “concern” for my well being. You see, I kept forgetting that they didn’t know the things I knew. I must have sounded like an alien to them, or a stranger, or even just a worry wart who was harshing their mellow instead of cheering them on for taking out a reverse mortgage (or some such dangerous credit instrument.)
Believe me, many were the times I’d stop and ask myself if I was the problem. Was I being indoctrinated into some kind of cult or being groomed into semi-insanity through the media I was consuming? Because although I felt perfectly sane I could feel a shift happening – a divide opening up between myself and the culture I’d always lived in and thrived on. To this day I perform these reality checks. I ask “What do I know *for sure?*” Back then the answers ranged from “I know house prices are skyrocketing for no valid reason and this is Big Trouble.” Or “I know the culture is beginning to become toxic.” Or “I know they are actively eliminating Christianity from the public sphere.” Or “I know they are lying about 9/11 and if they’ll lie about that what won’t they lie about?” I also knew that 99% of the people around me couldn’t see any of that, and they didn’t want to see.
In 2022, amid all the noise and fearmongering the answer which keeps me grounded is:
“I know that they are trying to force people to take an experimental genetic therapy and I know they are censoring a great deal of information and opinion.”
That’s enough for me to understand that my questioning mind is still sane and my concern is righteous.
Okay – what does any of this have to do with me not producing videos at the moment?
The problem is twofold.
1. It’s been years now since I have had the chance to paint, listen and learn.
Over the past 4 years my well of inspiration has run dry as I’ve chased the news and put together timely videos. When I began publishing deep dives I was still nourished by all those years of immersing myself in the words and ideas of learned people combined with my original findings and linkages. Now, I am saturated by mere sound bites –opinion columns, tweets and tabloid videos. Those are not nourishment, those are vending machine snacks. Without wanting to sound over-dramatic the word that comes to mind when I think about all of this is ‘poisoned.’
In short: I first need to detox, then take time to feed my mind, soul and body better intellectual and spiritual food. I am doing that now and loving it. (see pic for my current endeavours)
2. Once again I seem to be alone in my understanding of what’s going on. That’s not to say that I’m right and everyone else is wrong, it’s meant to say that my own perspective on it is not the same as others.’ More and more lately my ‘take’ on things is at odds with the general consensus on every side. Further, since I am a genuine person who doesn’t like to paper-over my feelings for the sake of going-along, I am finding it difficult to produce work that will inform/uplift my audience. Judging from the letters I receive I don’t believe people need any more speculation or bad news and in some ways that’s all I’d have to offer if I were to go online with my thoughts. In short: I don’t know what to say or how to say it right now.
Finally I will admit that there are personal reasons why I am silent at the moment. I would like to live my life in accordance with my inner guidance system but for various reasons I can’t move forward and I’m struggling to chart a course. I am working to overcome that but man oh man these are some tricky waters to navigate. Some days I feel I might drown, others I sail on calm seas. I’m sure you all share this experience.
I will return with videos as soon as I can.
In the meantime I’m keeping my website updated with material from around the internet and hope you’ll find those items informative and interesting.
God bless you all.
Polly
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Chris Pomeroy
19 Feb 2022
Hi Polly. Thank you for your work. My friend recieved a prophetic word from the Lord last night that is intended for tamara lich. for obvious reasons, I thought of you. He is trying to find her contact info to relay this. I expect her arrest was fake and based on your info, I know she is bad. thought you'd enjoy helping on this one. his email is: timesrunningout@outlook.com and his name is Laurin Jones. We are around Pembroke. Thank you. Chris Pomeroy.
Anthony Pantalleresco
10 Feb 2022
hey you can get around twitter and the rest--download screen rec---then you can record any thing you like post it on screenrec and the there will be a link anyone can access the link it takes all but 5 min--if you need any assistance let me know will be more then glad to assist ---I have been on top of this and NZ and have been letting everyone know whats up and have links listed on my shows as well soo feel free to use any material but use that tool you can circumvent the obstacles you re facing
Tony
Tony
Tim Turnstone
08 Feb 2022
Hi Polly
I often find myself in the same boat. I have been challenged by my adult children that I may have gone off the deep end on the vaccines and I have told all my kids that I am more mentally clear now than at any time in my life. Further, after a confrontation in august 2021 with me eldest son, I am more confident that I have taken the right path. We are now confronted with the possibility that our grandchildren will be vaxxed and potentially harmed for life.
Take all the time you need...it is your life
Thanks for your work!
I often find myself in the same boat. I have been challenged by my adult children that I may have gone off the deep end on the vaccines and I have told all my kids that I am more mentally clear now than at any time in my life. Further, after a confrontation in august 2021 with me eldest son, I am more confident that I have taken the right path. We are now confronted with the possibility that our grandchildren will be vaxxed and potentially harmed for life.
Take all the time you need...it is your life
Thanks for your work!
Michael B
08 Feb 2022
Polly, you truly are AMAZING! You and I are kindred spirits in that I too have immersed myself in reading and devoured over the years tremendous amounts of information about things like philosophy, astronomy, archeology, UFOs, medicine, spirituality, finance, investment, life after death, and so on and so on. There is one major difference however, and that being I have very little education above high school. Having said all that, I can relate to everything you say. I am not one to hold back on my thoughts so I have been excoriated and criticized for many things I’ve said but know to be true because I have done the research and am one of those few of us apparently that can still think critically. I spread the word to as many people as I can that we (humanity) are at a crossroads and we MUST stand up for truth and freedom or we will lose it and very possibly our lives. I am 69 years old so I am fighting for my children and grandchildren as well as the rest of humanity rather than for myself. We will win because we have God on our side.
God bless Canada and God bless America.
God bless Canada and God bless America.
Linda OHara
07 Feb 2022
We love you Polly and many of us have also lead that "double life", until it felt like I was going to puke! We are truth warriors and spiritual torch holders. Sounds like you are in the state of overwhelm and fatigue, so much happening and feeling like the salmon forever swimming upstream against the current. Well, I think the tide has turned with the truckers convoy, so much enthusiasm reaching so many people and to see that there are in fact so many of us out there willing to even a small part to create change. Take as much time as you need to recoup, you deserve it dear woman. You have already done sooooo much for us !!
God love you darling, I can see you Angel Wings sparkling in the sun !!
God love you darling, I can see you Angel Wings sparkling in the sun !!
Heidi Dizer
07 Feb 2022
Polly,. You so clearly make understood your place. How could it be anything but work, observation, interest and developed skills to see through this? This war on humanity.
I know that what you say and do is so obviously well thought out and researched. Your perspective is enjoyable and thought provoking for those of us who aren't able (for various reasons) to do what you do. I never for one minute thought you had a "staff" of researchers.
My husband and I live just across the border in NY. We are always enlightened by you.
Whatever time and space you need is well deserved. We look forward to whatever is next.
I know that what you say and do is so obviously well thought out and researched. Your perspective is enjoyable and thought provoking for those of us who aren't able (for various reasons) to do what you do. I never for one minute thought you had a "staff" of researchers.
My husband and I live just across the border in NY. We are always enlightened by you.
Whatever time and space you need is well deserved. We look forward to whatever is next.