I'm Still Alive and Free
I'm Still Alive and FreeJust a quick note of explanation for my regular audience.
I haven't made a new video in a long time and website updates have become irregular. For proof-of-life (hehe) you might want to follow my "associate" on Twitter. (see: (4) Mrs. Smith (@FringeViews) / Twitter )
Many of you know I had intended to take a break in January but put it off to cover the Trucker Convoy in Canada. It was a very important moment for my country so I used every last bit of energy I had to do reports about it at the time. After the convoy coverage I did the one WEF Global Shapers video because I felt the information was important as it gave the public a chance to pinpoint exactly who they could track and approach in their local areas. I was glad to see that information spread far and wide! Thank you to everyone who jumped on that topic and contributed with their own research, sharing the video, etc.
After that Global Shapers report went out, I ran out of gas.
Look, I know these moaning-type posts must be getting boring for you. It's not a subject I want to be writing about, believe me, but I think an explanation is warranted after such a long absence. My apologies if the following comes off as self-indulgent but there are those who I know are worried about me or who are wondering whether or not I'm gone for good so this post is for them. (God bless all of you for your genuine care, concern and connection. I am so grateful and blessed beyond words to have such a wonderful group around me.)
Let me start by acknowledging something important that is missing from the bulk of commentary in this day and age: we are living in a time of disorientation, loss, grief, desperation, information overload, and (mostly falsified) existential terror. We are being tortured, and torture works. People lose themselves. People acquiesce to all sorts of things they didn't think possible under normal circumstances. People go into shock. People give up, they cave in, and people die. Even though torture always succeeds in changing a person, it is not all negative in the end. I would never, ever advocate for torture and believe it to be a great evil, so don't mistake my message here. But there are some individuals who become stronger in some ways from the experience. Changed, and mostly negatively so, but having been forged in the fire their resolve hardens and becomes unbreakable. During the period of torture, however, each individual suffers in different measure according to his or her own constitution. Like it or not, that is where we are now. We are all still enduring the torture. What has been forced upon us for the past two (or more) years has been and continues to be a destruction of society, economy, culture, family, faith and individuals. Whatever stage you're in at the moment, however you are personally dealing with the torture I'm sure you will be able to relate to some of what I'm about to write.
Without getting into details, I can share that I've been lost in the Land of Deep Mourning for a while now. At first, even though the Covid Craziness was horrifying, I had been able to face it because my personal world remained intact. I had a sheltered island to retreat to while the surrounding sea was roiled by fear, doubt and uncertainty. For about 16 months following March 2020 I was able to see, research and deliver all the ugly news without it eating away at my heart and soul. I went to sleep at night peacefully because I felt that from my island I could perhaps help to inform people and thus help bring sanity back to society with my little contributions. This foundation - my island - had been all I needed to be able to carry on staring into the abyss, bring you reports, and even have a chuckle from time to time.
In September my island sunk into the deep. I can't tell you what happened for the sake of privacy though I dearly wish to dilute the exquisite pain contained in the story by pouring it out of me and into the hearts of all who read it. To do so would be selfish, though, so I choose to contain it within. Suffice to say that it was a blindside. The facts took weeks to fully set in and the emotional rollercoaster has not come to a stop yet. Since September I've been dealing with the typical stages of grief - denial, anger, bargaining and depression. Since this wasn't a death there's not been an end point. I can't accept it because the future is still unfolding. Maybe instead of 'acceptance' which is supposed to be the final stage of grief I will have to learn to live with it in another way.
In any case, what I found was that I couldn't look at the news any more. All of it was (is?) too painful. I could (can) barely interact with people. Who will I be when I come out the other end of this? How much of this is me being over-dramatic? What do I want for the future and am I even in control of this death/rebirth that I feel I'm going through?
Coincidentally (or probably not) my physical health began to deteriorate as well. It is mostly my eyes, as it was when I'd tried to escape Ontario and drive part way across the country. (Is this God or the Adversary stepping in I wonder?) Perhaps it is related to the fact that everything is twice as difficult to do now but my energy level has plummeted to a concerning level. What with the medical system here having bottomed out - not only will doctors not see patients in the office (hello Great Reset & Telehealth) - but I'm dubious in the extreme about interacting with it anyway.
As you can probably guess much of my work time is spent reading so with very blurry vision, well, you can guess how that has impacted my routine. And not just for reading, of course, but for all aspects of life. Perhaps de to the psychological factors in play I have found that when I try to work I feel nauseated and shaky, like I've been through a form of aversion therapy (torture, maybe.) On the other hand not working and not producing has also been very difficult. This is the basic shape of the hole I'm trying to climb out of with the help of distance, prayer and reflection.
As I type today I believe I'll be able to make a video soon, God willing. I'm feeling a little better lately and I've worked out some 'Mad Max' solutions for my ever-changing vision (see pic). Just a few days ago I got a new pair which works today but may not work a week from now. Luckily I have kept almost every pair of glasses I have ever worn, so I have material to work with. 🙂 Hey - it's a head start on the coping skills we'll all need in the 'you-will-own-nothing-and-be-happy' future, right? I can be the hobo optician. Ha!
Once again I apologize for making a post that is all about me and my problems (cringe) but as I said I've been away long enough that my monthly subscribers and other supporters were owed an honest explanation for my absence.
Thanks for reading, and don't forget to check out that twitter link. Mrs. Smith would be happy to see you.
God bless,
Polly
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Juscha Grunther
20 Apr 2022
I put together something of a report on my research on the topic of mood, mind, and behaviour altering technology through the use of wireless frequencies. Let me know if you'd like to see it. I spent quite a bit of time on the CIA Freedom of Information Reading Room to get access to info, and list all the patents I could find at that time. Email juscha@hushmail.com...
Juscha Grunther
20 Apr 2022
Polly. You are one of the best researchers going out there, I used to be a pretty good one myself, until my life fell apart. I don't know if you're familiar with the term 'Targeted Individual' (you probably are), but I have to say the symptoms you describe and the falling apart of your personal life are not so dissimilar to what I experienced a few years ago when I was working on exposing geoengineering/weather & climate modification/chemtrails and their connection to Climate Change. What I experienced at that time was so devastating to me it took me 2 years to recover.
DEW's, microwave, EMF, radar and other wireless frequencies can be used to manipulate mind, emotions, and physical well being. Think of the Cuba embassy. Think of the American Embassy in Russia years ago when the diplomats became mysteriously and debilitatingly ill. There are hundreds of Patents discussing the use of this technology and its effects on human and animal life. Look up the 1972 U.S. Naval Medical Research Institute document titled: "Bibliography of Reported Biological Phenomena ('Effects') and Clinical Manifestations Attributed to Microwave and Radio-Frequency Radiation". It lists over 2,000 medical literature references that show wireless frequencies to be able to cause everything from depression, apathy, insomnia, headaches, seizures and convulsions, fatigue, impotence, loss of memory, loss of hair, and the list goes on and on and on with dozens of very serious physical conditions as well.
DEW's, microwave, EMF, radar and other wireless frequencies can be used to manipulate mind, emotions, and physical well being. Think of the Cuba embassy. Think of the American Embassy in Russia years ago when the diplomats became mysteriously and debilitatingly ill. There are hundreds of Patents discussing the use of this technology and its effects on human and animal life. Look up the 1972 U.S. Naval Medical Research Institute document titled: "Bibliography of Reported Biological Phenomena ('Effects') and Clinical Manifestations Attributed to Microwave and Radio-Frequency Radiation". It lists over 2,000 medical literature references that show wireless frequencies to be able to cause everything from depression, apathy, insomnia, headaches, seizures and convulsions, fatigue, impotence, loss of memory, loss of hair, and the list goes on and on and on with dozens of very serious physical conditions as well.
Steve Mabes
20 Apr 2022
I wish that I was able cause I
Would send a note in a bottle.
Enjoy looking in the sand
Hearing the waves break
From across the dunes perchance
You returned the bottle message signed
Polly
Would send a note in a bottle.
Enjoy looking in the sand
Hearing the waves break
From across the dunes perchance
You returned the bottle message signed
Polly
Julie
20 Apr 2022
Sending healing energy and prayers for Divine guidance and the angels to hold you close. No need to apologize for being the raw, authentic you. It's refreshing to see real truth out there,, even if it's a personal level truth.
Hang in there. There more of us who hold the light of hope, the greater the chance we will be on the other side of it.
Much love and gratitude.
Hang in there. There more of us who hold the light of hope, the greater the chance we will be on the other side of it.
Much love and gratitude.
Pat
20 Apr 2022
Sending Love and Reiki energy your way.
Jennifer
20 Apr 2022
Dear Polly,
I will be praying for you.. When our place of safety and rest is no longer there to absorb the chaos of the world, it’s a frightening place to be.. I like you have war gamed in my mind how am I going to continue to stand in all of this nonsense? What am I going to do when I can no longer do the things I need to do because the government has stripped all my rights and dignity away..It’s so draining and causes so much anxiety that I literally like you can’t handle it anymore… Not to mention many around me don’t see it which basically is like pouring salt in an open wound.. I still try to wake people up but honestly I’m not sure those who are asleep will ever wake up(or that they even desire to wake up).It makes me so angry… How can people be so damn stupid! It’s all really too much to bear at times, so with that my dear friend I know how you feel.. I’ve never met you but feel like I do know you… I think because we are part of the sane crowd, it’s like being kindred spirits as silly as that sounds… Let me end with this, The Lord is with us.. We have been given the gift of truth because He trusts us.. Why us? Strange isn’t it out of millions of people he chose us! I truly believe God is separating the sheep from the goats.. You and I do have that in common my dear sister, we are children of the King, King Jesus… Be strong in the Lord, see you on the other side💕🙏🏼
I will be praying for you.. When our place of safety and rest is no longer there to absorb the chaos of the world, it’s a frightening place to be.. I like you have war gamed in my mind how am I going to continue to stand in all of this nonsense? What am I going to do when I can no longer do the things I need to do because the government has stripped all my rights and dignity away..It’s so draining and causes so much anxiety that I literally like you can’t handle it anymore… Not to mention many around me don’t see it which basically is like pouring salt in an open wound.. I still try to wake people up but honestly I’m not sure those who are asleep will ever wake up(or that they even desire to wake up).It makes me so angry… How can people be so damn stupid! It’s all really too much to bear at times, so with that my dear friend I know how you feel.. I’ve never met you but feel like I do know you… I think because we are part of the sane crowd, it’s like being kindred spirits as silly as that sounds… Let me end with this, The Lord is with us.. We have been given the gift of truth because He trusts us.. Why us? Strange isn’t it out of millions of people he chose us! I truly believe God is separating the sheep from the goats.. You and I do have that in common my dear sister, we are children of the King, King Jesus… Be strong in the Lord, see you on the other side💕🙏🏼
blah
20 Apr 2022
Godspeed.
Karen Tokarse
20 Apr 2022
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God bless you, Polly.
God bless you, Polly.