It's All Fun and Games Until Somebody Loses an 'I'
Some of you may have noticed that I haven’t uploaded a video in a couple of weeks. I’m writing now to ask you to be patient with me and to tell you that I’m doing okay, not to worry. In this letter to you I’d like to explain a few things and give you a peek into my past and present. I’ve been asked many times about my research methods, and it’s been speculated here and there on the internet that I must have partners because, quote, “there’s no way she can do that all by herself.” Well, here’s the truth.
I do work alone and except for the odd article here and there that people have sent me via email I get my own leads and follow my own instincts to gather every piece of information that I use in my videos. I make all the graphics and do all the editing. Personally I don’t see why this is so unbelievable to anyone. I think the reason it may seem so is because I can draw on a wealth of material quite quickly and I have a wide range of knowledge in a variety of subject areas across a fairly long span of history. This is because of my past habits, not necessarily because of any unique methods of research.
Before I began posting videos in about March 2016 I had been an artist – a painter. Visual artists can tell you that this work is somewhat meditative and as such it is conducive to learning. While my hands and a part of my brain were occupied by the canvas I would listen to audiobooks, interviews and lectures on a wide variety of topics. It so happened that I had always been interested in ‘high weirdness’ so at first those were the topics I gravitated to before moving on to try to gain a deeper understanding of the world around me.
But I have to go back in time for a minute.
As a girl of 12 or 13 I read Erich Von Daniken’s Chariots of the Gods which blew my mind. A couple of years later I got to hear a friend’s family discussions about the unusual elements of the Kennedy Assassination and the Moon Landings which introduced me to the idea that recent history might not be what it seems. Part of my university education alerted me to the various ways in which ‘science’ had been and continued to be used to shape cultures and societies (this was before universities became indoctrination centers for the official narratives). My curiosity was always active, but after I left school and became a mother a lot of that got put on the back burner as my time and energy were monopolized by full time work, home maintenance and child rearing.
When my child got a little older and no longer needed (nor wanted) much of my attention I took up painting again and combined this with the wonders of the internet. I began with forbidden archeology and the mysteries of Egypt – these were fascinating to me as I marveled at all that was hidden from mainstream education. Most of all I wondered why. Why was the scope of education so repetitive and boring when there were so many things they could be bringing to students!?
After I ventured down those paths I began to look at the terror attacks of 9/11.
9/11 led me somehow to MKUltra, and then the Franklin Cover-Up. Then Operation Paperclip, Aaron Russo, Bill Cooper, Max Igan, Alex Jones, Central Banking, etc etc. In short I started to see the Matrix, and was beginning to learn how to read it.
After I gorged myself on those topics I went deeper and began listening to speakers and lecturers in biology, psychology, history, economics, religion, mathematics, energy – these things were often way above my head but over the years I learned the vocabulary, then the theories, the findings and finally could see the interconnectedness of these disciplines. In fact I began to feel that I saw the interconnectedness better than any of the individual specialists I was learning from. They were siloed, myopic. I wasn’t.
The frustration I began to encounter was that I had absolutely nowhere to discuss any of this. Inside I was very well read and had so many intellectual curiosities but in day-to-day life I was Mom, wife, daughter, pal, office drone who should know her place and stop talking about “weird, boring, irrelevant scary” things and stick to picking out tiles for the new bathroom or admiring the tiles someone else had recently installed.
Thankfully at that time I still found common ground with most people in my life. Indeed we *could* still talk about bathroom tiles … or vacations, movies, music, cooking, home renovation projects, etc without any trouble. For a long while I managed my ‘double life’ keeping my research life private like a spy would have to do but still enjoying the company of friends, family and society.
As I learned more I could see more patterns - I could project into the future, so to speak. That’s when things became troublesome for me. I felt I could see where society was heading and this naturally affected the way I planned, the way I communicated. It put up barriers between me and the people around me though I wasn’t really aware of it at the time. All I knew was that sometimes, for seemingly no reason, I would trigger people into blank stares or shock or (worst of all) “concern” for my well being. You see, I kept forgetting that they didn’t know the things I knew. I must have sounded like an alien to them, or a stranger, or even just a worry wart who was harshing their mellow instead of cheering them on for taking out a reverse mortgage (or some such dangerous credit instrument.)
Believe me, many were the times I’d stop and ask myself if I was the problem. Was I being indoctrinated into some kind of cult or being groomed into semi-insanity through the media I was consuming? Because although I felt perfectly sane I could feel a shift happening – a divide opening up between myself and the culture I’d always lived in and thrived on. To this day I perform these reality checks. I ask “What do I know *for sure?*” Back then the answers ranged from “I know house prices are skyrocketing for no valid reason and this is Big Trouble.” Or “I know the culture is beginning to become toxic.” Or “I know they are actively eliminating Christianity from the public sphere.” Or “I know they are lying about 9/11 and if they’ll lie about that what won’t they lie about?” I also knew that 99% of the people around me couldn’t see any of that, and they didn’t want to see.
In 2022, amid all the noise and fearmongering the answer which keeps me grounded is:
“I know that they are trying to force people to take an experimental genetic therapy and I know they are censoring a great deal of information and opinion.”
That’s enough for me to understand that my questioning mind is still sane and my concern is righteous.
Okay – what does any of this have to do with me not producing videos at the moment?
The problem is twofold.
1. It’s been years now since I have had the chance to paint, listen and learn.
Over the past 4 years my well of inspiration has run dry as I’ve chased the news and put together timely videos. When I began publishing deep dives I was still nourished by all those years of immersing myself in the words and ideas of learned people combined with my original findings and linkages. Now, I am saturated by mere sound bites –opinion columns, tweets and tabloid videos. Those are not nourishment, those are vending machine snacks. Without wanting to sound over-dramatic the word that comes to mind when I think about all of this is ‘poisoned.’
In short: I first need to detox, then take time to feed my mind, soul and body better intellectual and spiritual food. I am doing that now and loving it. (see pic for my current endeavours)
2. Once again I seem to be alone in my understanding of what’s going on. That’s not to say that I’m right and everyone else is wrong, it’s meant to say that my own perspective on it is not the same as others.’ More and more lately my ‘take’ on things is at odds with the general consensus on every side. Further, since I am a genuine person who doesn’t like to paper-over my feelings for the sake of going-along, I am finding it difficult to produce work that will inform/uplift my audience. Judging from the letters I receive I don’t believe people need any more speculation or bad news and in some ways that’s all I’d have to offer if I were to go online with my thoughts. In short: I don’t know what to say or how to say it right now.
Finally I will admit that there are personal reasons why I am silent at the moment. I would like to live my life in accordance with my inner guidance system but for various reasons I can’t move forward and I’m struggling to chart a course. I am working to overcome that but man oh man these are some tricky waters to navigate. Some days I feel I might drown, others I sail on calm seas. I’m sure you all share this experience.
I will return with videos as soon as I can.
In the meantime I’m keeping my website updated with material from around the internet and hope you’ll find those items informative and interesting.
God bless you all.
Polly
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Mike E
29 Jan 2022
Hi Polly
I will miss you . You made me feet like we were having a chat. I looked forward to your videos and was so amazed at your ability to draw connections (a true, rarely visible today)
Please please take the time you need to sort yourself out. Please come back soon. You will be leaving a gap in my life that others just can’t fill for me.
As for life in general, it’s never been easy for me since I was about 5 and started school with major hay fever problems . Life never really has been great since then. I find listening to Ned Davies is helpful . Anyway this is about you, so please please don’t go away for too long . I know it might seem selfish say this , however it’s just how I feel.
Here in NZ life isn’t exactly enjoyable. Life I g to Hough was supposed to be a gift. It seems more like a struggle
I somethings try to imagine life in a perfect world. Enjoy your paintings. Sell a few and give Hunter B some competition
See you soon. Maybe a Friday night chat on your comeback video.
Stay strong . Looks like an increase in awakenings maybe happening. Prayer gets you there
I will miss you . You made me feet like we were having a chat. I looked forward to your videos and was so amazed at your ability to draw connections (a true, rarely visible today)
Please please take the time you need to sort yourself out. Please come back soon. You will be leaving a gap in my life that others just can’t fill for me.
As for life in general, it’s never been easy for me since I was about 5 and started school with major hay fever problems . Life never really has been great since then. I find listening to Ned Davies is helpful . Anyway this is about you, so please please don’t go away for too long . I know it might seem selfish say this , however it’s just how I feel.
Here in NZ life isn’t exactly enjoyable. Life I g to Hough was supposed to be a gift. It seems more like a struggle
I somethings try to imagine life in a perfect world. Enjoy your paintings. Sell a few and give Hunter B some competition
See you soon. Maybe a Friday night chat on your comeback video.
Stay strong . Looks like an increase in awakenings maybe happening. Prayer gets you there
Jack Stossel
29 Jan 2022
Hello Polly, I’m glad to hear your not completely gone off the planet. I appreciate and understand your life’s situation. I would tune in from time to time to get an update, until I couldn’t find you, now I’m glad to know your OK. Your videos stopped about the time Cristen W came up gone, because of my listening to you I have discovered my own take on Cristen W, because of her real last name, I know some things. So I am happy you never came up missing. We live in very troubled times. Enjoy your time off especially with your children, they grow up too fast, and I will be looking forward to future videos from you, take care, Jack
Amazed Fan
29 Jan 2022
Dear Polly,
I came here to get your email to send you a lead I found that I think you may find interesting and found this letter.
While I am a little sad to see the weariness of war has taken its toll on you to the point you feel you need to completely shift I do sympathize with that and wish you well whatever path you walk in any given moment.
I personally believe you have a gift and Canada (and the world as a whole) may suffer slightly in it's ability to find somewhere to get news they trust. You are an inspiration to many and while it may be time to shift gears for you I think it would be prudent to consider building an institution whose control you can pass the torch to before letting something you've worked so hard on wither away.
Take your much needed break but comeback and finish what you started. Find help. Network. And build something that has your spirit without needing your soul forever. You are the Best of the Best (at what you do) we have as far as I (and I am sure others will agree) in Canada and so it is up to you to go forth and multiply! Grow a media empire built on Truth to crush Satans Media Empire. Film behind the scenes. Make training videos. Find volunteers to train. Network. Do what you gotta do but don't let the psychology effects you know are meant to stop you from stepping forward and never giving up. You are a warrior leader and you must bear the burden of shouldering your pain so as not to lower the morale of your devoted followers. Blessing
I came here to get your email to send you a lead I found that I think you may find interesting and found this letter.
While I am a little sad to see the weariness of war has taken its toll on you to the point you feel you need to completely shift I do sympathize with that and wish you well whatever path you walk in any given moment.
I personally believe you have a gift and Canada (and the world as a whole) may suffer slightly in it's ability to find somewhere to get news they trust. You are an inspiration to many and while it may be time to shift gears for you I think it would be prudent to consider building an institution whose control you can pass the torch to before letting something you've worked so hard on wither away.
Take your much needed break but comeback and finish what you started. Find help. Network. And build something that has your spirit without needing your soul forever. You are the Best of the Best (at what you do) we have as far as I (and I am sure others will agree) in Canada and so it is up to you to go forth and multiply! Grow a media empire built on Truth to crush Satans Media Empire. Film behind the scenes. Make training videos. Find volunteers to train. Network. Do what you gotta do but don't let the psychology effects you know are meant to stop you from stepping forward and never giving up. You are a warrior leader and you must bear the burden of shouldering your pain so as not to lower the morale of your devoted followers. Blessing
Jeff Dragon Star
28 Jan 2022
Hi Polly
I have really enjoyed having you in my life though the course of this shift in human awareness. Thank you for all the work you do to educate and infirm. I especially loved when went ‘out’ and spoke with people in Kingston at the Nurses Rally.
The deep dives into the people that we ‘elected’ are priceless. I don’t see anyone putting together the jigsaw like you do. The way you connect the dots between the ‘false flags’ is artful. So creative the way you present your research..
I’ve been a fan of Daniel Liszt (Dark Jounalist) for some time now. If you are not aware of his work it has major parallels with your exposures. One of the major threads that DJ covers is the study of Anthroposophy and the Theosophist Society. This includes the words of Rudolph Steiner, Edgar Cayce, Helena Blavatsky and many others. This is a whole other perspective on the evolution of Humananity. The central tenant of these teachings in my opinion is we are learning to remain in our humanity. A good example of this rising up of our Christ consciousness today is the Freedom Convoy that we are are experiencing right now. The thousands who came out, brought food and supplies and cheered on the movement of non-discrimination in a peaceful in our faces way.
The true colours of our political elites is showing to even the most numb Noth American.
Polly, I Love you. I trust you are well and recharging your Spiritual Batteries. We need you in the changing world ahead!!
Looking forward to your next
I have really enjoyed having you in my life though the course of this shift in human awareness. Thank you for all the work you do to educate and infirm. I especially loved when went ‘out’ and spoke with people in Kingston at the Nurses Rally.
The deep dives into the people that we ‘elected’ are priceless. I don’t see anyone putting together the jigsaw like you do. The way you connect the dots between the ‘false flags’ is artful. So creative the way you present your research..
I’ve been a fan of Daniel Liszt (Dark Jounalist) for some time now. If you are not aware of his work it has major parallels with your exposures. One of the major threads that DJ covers is the study of Anthroposophy and the Theosophist Society. This includes the words of Rudolph Steiner, Edgar Cayce, Helena Blavatsky and many others. This is a whole other perspective on the evolution of Humananity. The central tenant of these teachings in my opinion is we are learning to remain in our humanity. A good example of this rising up of our Christ consciousness today is the Freedom Convoy that we are are experiencing right now. The thousands who came out, brought food and supplies and cheered on the movement of non-discrimination in a peaceful in our faces way.
The true colours of our political elites is showing to even the most numb Noth American.
Polly, I Love you. I trust you are well and recharging your Spiritual Batteries. We need you in the changing world ahead!!
Looking forward to your next
norm johnson
28 Jan 2022
thank you polly,. i feel the same in a lot of ways. i dont know if there is a future. and at a crossroads. frienda tell me to not speak my truth as they think im crazy, but i dont care but have stopped telling them my thoughts. even my children, and let the future take its course. i will just be here for them if needed. love what you have given me,. norm
Melba
28 Jan 2022
Dear Polly.
My heart goes out to you. I know what you are going through, It is very hard to know all these things or even suspect them and try to be around people that are totally oblivious. There is such a chasm and lack of connection. When you care for people and try to warn them, they act like you've just blasted off to space again. I find all of your videos so informative and thought provoking and wonder at your courage but thank God for it. I hope you find your inspiration soon because you are and have been a source of inspiration and courage for many of us. Paint and paint and learn and refill. do a little dancing and praying and come back stronger than ever. Every good soldier needs R&R. You will have my prayers as you restore your soul.
In Christ-Melba
My heart goes out to you. I know what you are going through, It is very hard to know all these things or even suspect them and try to be around people that are totally oblivious. There is such a chasm and lack of connection. When you care for people and try to warn them, they act like you've just blasted off to space again. I find all of your videos so informative and thought provoking and wonder at your courage but thank God for it. I hope you find your inspiration soon because you are and have been a source of inspiration and courage for many of us. Paint and paint and learn and refill. do a little dancing and praying and come back stronger than ever. Every good soldier needs R&R. You will have my prayers as you restore your soul.
In Christ-Melba