It's All Fun and Games Until Somebody Loses an 'I'
Some of you may have noticed that I haven’t uploaded a video in a couple of weeks. I’m writing now to ask you to be patient with me and to tell you that I’m doing okay, not to worry. In this letter to you I’d like to explain a few things and give you a peek into my past and present. I’ve been asked many times about my research methods, and it’s been speculated here and there on the internet that I must have partners because, quote, “there’s no way she can do that all by herself.” Well, here’s the truth.
I do work alone and except for the odd article here and there that people have sent me via email I get my own leads and follow my own instincts to gather every piece of information that I use in my videos. I make all the graphics and do all the editing. Personally I don’t see why this is so unbelievable to anyone. I think the reason it may seem so is because I can draw on a wealth of material quite quickly and I have a wide range of knowledge in a variety of subject areas across a fairly long span of history. This is because of my past habits, not necessarily because of any unique methods of research.
Before I began posting videos in about March 2016 I had been an artist – a painter. Visual artists can tell you that this work is somewhat meditative and as such it is conducive to learning. While my hands and a part of my brain were occupied by the canvas I would listen to audiobooks, interviews and lectures on a wide variety of topics. It so happened that I had always been interested in ‘high weirdness’ so at first those were the topics I gravitated to before moving on to try to gain a deeper understanding of the world around me.
But I have to go back in time for a minute.
As a girl of 12 or 13 I read Erich Von Daniken’s Chariots of the Gods which blew my mind. A couple of years later I got to hear a friend’s family discussions about the unusual elements of the Kennedy Assassination and the Moon Landings which introduced me to the idea that recent history might not be what it seems. Part of my university education alerted me to the various ways in which ‘science’ had been and continued to be used to shape cultures and societies (this was before universities became indoctrination centers for the official narratives). My curiosity was always active, but after I left school and became a mother a lot of that got put on the back burner as my time and energy were monopolized by full time work, home maintenance and child rearing.
When my child got a little older and no longer needed (nor wanted) much of my attention I took up painting again and combined this with the wonders of the internet. I began with forbidden archeology and the mysteries of Egypt – these were fascinating to me as I marveled at all that was hidden from mainstream education. Most of all I wondered why. Why was the scope of education so repetitive and boring when there were so many things they could be bringing to students!?
After I ventured down those paths I began to look at the terror attacks of 9/11.
9/11 led me somehow to MKUltra, and then the Franklin Cover-Up. Then Operation Paperclip, Aaron Russo, Bill Cooper, Max Igan, Alex Jones, Central Banking, etc etc. In short I started to see the Matrix, and was beginning to learn how to read it.
After I gorged myself on those topics I went deeper and began listening to speakers and lecturers in biology, psychology, history, economics, religion, mathematics, energy – these things were often way above my head but over the years I learned the vocabulary, then the theories, the findings and finally could see the interconnectedness of these disciplines. In fact I began to feel that I saw the interconnectedness better than any of the individual specialists I was learning from. They were siloed, myopic. I wasn’t.
The frustration I began to encounter was that I had absolutely nowhere to discuss any of this. Inside I was very well read and had so many intellectual curiosities but in day-to-day life I was Mom, wife, daughter, pal, office drone who should know her place and stop talking about “weird, boring, irrelevant scary” things and stick to picking out tiles for the new bathroom or admiring the tiles someone else had recently installed.
Thankfully at that time I still found common ground with most people in my life. Indeed we *could* still talk about bathroom tiles … or vacations, movies, music, cooking, home renovation projects, etc without any trouble. For a long while I managed my ‘double life’ keeping my research life private like a spy would have to do but still enjoying the company of friends, family and society.
As I learned more I could see more patterns - I could project into the future, so to speak. That’s when things became troublesome for me. I felt I could see where society was heading and this naturally affected the way I planned, the way I communicated. It put up barriers between me and the people around me though I wasn’t really aware of it at the time. All I knew was that sometimes, for seemingly no reason, I would trigger people into blank stares or shock or (worst of all) “concern” for my well being. You see, I kept forgetting that they didn’t know the things I knew. I must have sounded like an alien to them, or a stranger, or even just a worry wart who was harshing their mellow instead of cheering them on for taking out a reverse mortgage (or some such dangerous credit instrument.)
Believe me, many were the times I’d stop and ask myself if I was the problem. Was I being indoctrinated into some kind of cult or being groomed into semi-insanity through the media I was consuming? Because although I felt perfectly sane I could feel a shift happening – a divide opening up between myself and the culture I’d always lived in and thrived on. To this day I perform these reality checks. I ask “What do I know *for sure?*” Back then the answers ranged from “I know house prices are skyrocketing for no valid reason and this is Big Trouble.” Or “I know the culture is beginning to become toxic.” Or “I know they are actively eliminating Christianity from the public sphere.” Or “I know they are lying about 9/11 and if they’ll lie about that what won’t they lie about?” I also knew that 99% of the people around me couldn’t see any of that, and they didn’t want to see.
In 2022, amid all the noise and fearmongering the answer which keeps me grounded is:
“I know that they are trying to force people to take an experimental genetic therapy and I know they are censoring a great deal of information and opinion.”
That’s enough for me to understand that my questioning mind is still sane and my concern is righteous.
Okay – what does any of this have to do with me not producing videos at the moment?
The problem is twofold.
1. It’s been years now since I have had the chance to paint, listen and learn.
Over the past 4 years my well of inspiration has run dry as I’ve chased the news and put together timely videos. When I began publishing deep dives I was still nourished by all those years of immersing myself in the words and ideas of learned people combined with my original findings and linkages. Now, I am saturated by mere sound bites –opinion columns, tweets and tabloid videos. Those are not nourishment, those are vending machine snacks. Without wanting to sound over-dramatic the word that comes to mind when I think about all of this is ‘poisoned.’
In short: I first need to detox, then take time to feed my mind, soul and body better intellectual and spiritual food. I am doing that now and loving it. (see pic for my current endeavours)
2. Once again I seem to be alone in my understanding of what’s going on. That’s not to say that I’m right and everyone else is wrong, it’s meant to say that my own perspective on it is not the same as others.’ More and more lately my ‘take’ on things is at odds with the general consensus on every side. Further, since I am a genuine person who doesn’t like to paper-over my feelings for the sake of going-along, I am finding it difficult to produce work that will inform/uplift my audience. Judging from the letters I receive I don’t believe people need any more speculation or bad news and in some ways that’s all I’d have to offer if I were to go online with my thoughts. In short: I don’t know what to say or how to say it right now.
Finally I will admit that there are personal reasons why I am silent at the moment. I would like to live my life in accordance with my inner guidance system but for various reasons I can’t move forward and I’m struggling to chart a course. I am working to overcome that but man oh man these are some tricky waters to navigate. Some days I feel I might drown, others I sail on calm seas. I’m sure you all share this experience.
I will return with videos as soon as I can.
In the meantime I’m keeping my website updated with material from around the internet and hope you’ll find those items informative and interesting.
God bless you all.
Polly
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Robert Wiebe
26 Jan 2022
Hiya Polly.... Just a quick note to say "THANKS" for all you've done. Your digs have helped so many folks come to terms with "the breadth and depth" of the shit that shouldn't exist. A long time ago (before the internet was a thing) I fell into the hole through books, I was a sailor in a navy at the time and my presentation skills were less than (still are). Folks I spoke to were PDQ to label me and head over to the other side of the street. I almost relished in that. Kinda takes the pressure off when the entirety of folks you know think you're loony tunes. Your methods serve you well and you present well. I know you've helped a ton of folks make some sense of it all and for that I am grateful. Whatever you choose to do next all I can say is..... "Go gettem Tiger", You've earned it. Blessings
Robert
Robert
alicia cyr
26 Jan 2022
Dear Polly,
I've been checking a few times to see if there were any new videos. I want you to know that we miss you dearly, not just for what you do, but for who you are!! I mean you have blown me away with the research you do and your intelligence. I have felt from the beginning that you are right on about all of it! You do fantastic work, and yet still manage to make us smile and feel hope. I love how you share what you've learned in a very calm and concise fashion. Well know that you are very missed. I pray that God will bring you continued peace, discernment that brings wisdom. My husband and i during covid would just listen to hours of your videos and a few others. Truth seekers sometimes pay a huge price. Remember no weapon formed against you shall prosper!! For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of love, power and a sound mind. You "Amazing Polly" have a sound mind! God is very pleased with you. I will keep you in my prayers & thoughts. Tough week for me, yesterday was my daughter Jennifer's 49th birthday, has been struggling with chronic insomnia since June of 2020, and breast cancer diagnosis. I have 3 beautiful daughters and 12 grandchildre, all live miles away.
Well, back to you, take time to rest and refresh. God likes to lead us to sit by still waters. We love you ! God bless you and family
another awesome truth teller/ researcher/ talk show host Stewpeters.tv awesome christian too
I've been checking a few times to see if there were any new videos. I want you to know that we miss you dearly, not just for what you do, but for who you are!! I mean you have blown me away with the research you do and your intelligence. I have felt from the beginning that you are right on about all of it! You do fantastic work, and yet still manage to make us smile and feel hope. I love how you share what you've learned in a very calm and concise fashion. Well know that you are very missed. I pray that God will bring you continued peace, discernment that brings wisdom. My husband and i during covid would just listen to hours of your videos and a few others. Truth seekers sometimes pay a huge price. Remember no weapon formed against you shall prosper!! For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of love, power and a sound mind. You "Amazing Polly" have a sound mind! God is very pleased with you. I will keep you in my prayers & thoughts. Tough week for me, yesterday was my daughter Jennifer's 49th birthday, has been struggling with chronic insomnia since June of 2020, and breast cancer diagnosis. I have 3 beautiful daughters and 12 grandchildre, all live miles away.
Well, back to you, take time to rest and refresh. God likes to lead us to sit by still waters. We love you ! God bless you and family
another awesome truth teller/ researcher/ talk show host Stewpeters.tv awesome christian too
Lisa
26 Jan 2022
Hello Polly! Thanks for all that you share with us! I believe many have reached the limits of what we can do with the evil we are currently facing and enduring. I enjoy your videos, especially the updates of life in Canada, the personal stories you relate, like the one about the pub owner, sitting in your gardens or your quiet ventures into quiet, vacant spaces. Hang in there - it's good v evil fight, as you know. Guess it's been that way for a while, now; the Great Awakening has been really amazing to watch. We are born into our time, so together we will take a stand and fight like hell! Appreciate your digs, and I will gladly await whatever you wish to post on your site while you are creating physical art. Reminds me that I should take time to pick up painting again! Take care of yourself and stay well!
Jean Doneit
26 Jan 2022
Thank you Polly for all you do. You are an inspiration to me and so many others. Thank you for your letter. I can certainly understand where you are. You are in a good place and it will pay off in so many ways. I always love your videos and I was missing you today. You are someone of like mind. We all need to be refreshed. May blessings and love surround you on your journey forward and also to all of us on this journey together! I will look forward to your return. You truly are the Amazing Polly! 💝💖♥️
Laura
26 Jan 2022
Great work Polly, thank goodness I found you early on in 2020! I thought thank you for putting together all the things that didn’t make any sense.
I too see the links and am able to gauge where things are going easily and thankfully have met a great group of likeminded people where I live over the past 2 years.
Hope you manage to pick up your brushes/pencils and create but keep them videos coming! Blessings for all you do.
I too see the links and am able to gauge where things are going easily and thankfully have met a great group of likeminded people where I live over the past 2 years.
Hope you manage to pick up your brushes/pencils and create but keep them videos coming! Blessings for all you do.
Dee
26 Jan 2022
Hi Polly,
Wow, I thought I was reading about myself! I also read “Chariots of the Gods” but at 10 yrs old. My Dad was blown away that I had done so and we went together to see the movie. It opened up a channel between us to discuss subject matter that few children typically had with a parent. Having been in politics, my day confided things he knew about to me which further opened my eyes to what goes on “behind the scenes.” No one my age knew what I did. He showed me the con behind many things. The clues to look for and to question what you are told and see. His integrity was impossible to sustain in that environment and one has to comply or your career must die. So that part of his career died. I knew things in the early 70’s that just in the last 10 years became mostly widely known. I was a artist as was my mother, for personal enjoyment. My had been commercially before marrying. Probably due to my early realization of processes, I was intuitive as what seemed to be happening when most were blind that later were proved to be correct. It’s an intuitive knowing in a way. I’m still mothering so don’t have the time to do as much as you do but I do so in my own little sphere. I’ve had a friend unfriend me for things I’ve said only later to ask to be a friend again when what I postulated was happening later came to be. Sometimes the “things” that those at some power level claim to be happening by others have actually be orchestrated by them. Thank you for your work!
Wow, I thought I was reading about myself! I also read “Chariots of the Gods” but at 10 yrs old. My Dad was blown away that I had done so and we went together to see the movie. It opened up a channel between us to discuss subject matter that few children typically had with a parent. Having been in politics, my day confided things he knew about to me which further opened my eyes to what goes on “behind the scenes.” No one my age knew what I did. He showed me the con behind many things. The clues to look for and to question what you are told and see. His integrity was impossible to sustain in that environment and one has to comply or your career must die. So that part of his career died. I knew things in the early 70’s that just in the last 10 years became mostly widely known. I was a artist as was my mother, for personal enjoyment. My had been commercially before marrying. Probably due to my early realization of processes, I was intuitive as what seemed to be happening when most were blind that later were proved to be correct. It’s an intuitive knowing in a way. I’m still mothering so don’t have the time to do as much as you do but I do so in my own little sphere. I’ve had a friend unfriend me for things I’ve said only later to ask to be a friend again when what I postulated was happening later came to be. Sometimes the “things” that those at some power level claim to be happening by others have actually be orchestrated by them. Thank you for your work!