It's All Fun and Games Until Somebody Loses an 'I'
Some of you may have noticed that I haven’t uploaded a video in a couple of weeks. I’m writing now to ask you to be patient with me and to tell you that I’m doing okay, not to worry. In this letter to you I’d like to explain a few things and give you a peek into my past and present. I’ve been asked many times about my research methods, and it’s been speculated here and there on the internet that I must have partners because, quote, “there’s no way she can do that all by herself.” Well, here’s the truth.
I do work alone and except for the odd article here and there that people have sent me via email I get my own leads and follow my own instincts to gather every piece of information that I use in my videos. I make all the graphics and do all the editing. Personally I don’t see why this is so unbelievable to anyone. I think the reason it may seem so is because I can draw on a wealth of material quite quickly and I have a wide range of knowledge in a variety of subject areas across a fairly long span of history. This is because of my past habits, not necessarily because of any unique methods of research.
Before I began posting videos in about March 2016 I had been an artist – a painter. Visual artists can tell you that this work is somewhat meditative and as such it is conducive to learning. While my hands and a part of my brain were occupied by the canvas I would listen to audiobooks, interviews and lectures on a wide variety of topics. It so happened that I had always been interested in ‘high weirdness’ so at first those were the topics I gravitated to before moving on to try to gain a deeper understanding of the world around me.
But I have to go back in time for a minute.
As a girl of 12 or 13 I read Erich Von Daniken’s Chariots of the Gods which blew my mind. A couple of years later I got to hear a friend’s family discussions about the unusual elements of the Kennedy Assassination and the Moon Landings which introduced me to the idea that recent history might not be what it seems. Part of my university education alerted me to the various ways in which ‘science’ had been and continued to be used to shape cultures and societies (this was before universities became indoctrination centers for the official narratives). My curiosity was always active, but after I left school and became a mother a lot of that got put on the back burner as my time and energy were monopolized by full time work, home maintenance and child rearing.
When my child got a little older and no longer needed (nor wanted) much of my attention I took up painting again and combined this with the wonders of the internet. I began with forbidden archeology and the mysteries of Egypt – these were fascinating to me as I marveled at all that was hidden from mainstream education. Most of all I wondered why. Why was the scope of education so repetitive and boring when there were so many things they could be bringing to students!?
After I ventured down those paths I began to look at the terror attacks of 9/11.
9/11 led me somehow to MKUltra, and then the Franklin Cover-Up. Then Operation Paperclip, Aaron Russo, Bill Cooper, Max Igan, Alex Jones, Central Banking, etc etc. In short I started to see the Matrix, and was beginning to learn how to read it.
After I gorged myself on those topics I went deeper and began listening to speakers and lecturers in biology, psychology, history, economics, religion, mathematics, energy – these things were often way above my head but over the years I learned the vocabulary, then the theories, the findings and finally could see the interconnectedness of these disciplines. In fact I began to feel that I saw the interconnectedness better than any of the individual specialists I was learning from. They were siloed, myopic. I wasn’t.
The frustration I began to encounter was that I had absolutely nowhere to discuss any of this. Inside I was very well read and had so many intellectual curiosities but in day-to-day life I was Mom, wife, daughter, pal, office drone who should know her place and stop talking about “weird, boring, irrelevant scary” things and stick to picking out tiles for the new bathroom or admiring the tiles someone else had recently installed.
Thankfully at that time I still found common ground with most people in my life. Indeed we *could* still talk about bathroom tiles … or vacations, movies, music, cooking, home renovation projects, etc without any trouble. For a long while I managed my ‘double life’ keeping my research life private like a spy would have to do but still enjoying the company of friends, family and society.
As I learned more I could see more patterns - I could project into the future, so to speak. That’s when things became troublesome for me. I felt I could see where society was heading and this naturally affected the way I planned, the way I communicated. It put up barriers between me and the people around me though I wasn’t really aware of it at the time. All I knew was that sometimes, for seemingly no reason, I would trigger people into blank stares or shock or (worst of all) “concern” for my well being. You see, I kept forgetting that they didn’t know the things I knew. I must have sounded like an alien to them, or a stranger, or even just a worry wart who was harshing their mellow instead of cheering them on for taking out a reverse mortgage (or some such dangerous credit instrument.)
Believe me, many were the times I’d stop and ask myself if I was the problem. Was I being indoctrinated into some kind of cult or being groomed into semi-insanity through the media I was consuming? Because although I felt perfectly sane I could feel a shift happening – a divide opening up between myself and the culture I’d always lived in and thrived on. To this day I perform these reality checks. I ask “What do I know *for sure?*” Back then the answers ranged from “I know house prices are skyrocketing for no valid reason and this is Big Trouble.” Or “I know the culture is beginning to become toxic.” Or “I know they are actively eliminating Christianity from the public sphere.” Or “I know they are lying about 9/11 and if they’ll lie about that what won’t they lie about?” I also knew that 99% of the people around me couldn’t see any of that, and they didn’t want to see.
In 2022, amid all the noise and fearmongering the answer which keeps me grounded is:
“I know that they are trying to force people to take an experimental genetic therapy and I know they are censoring a great deal of information and opinion.”
That’s enough for me to understand that my questioning mind is still sane and my concern is righteous.
Okay – what does any of this have to do with me not producing videos at the moment?
The problem is twofold.
1. It’s been years now since I have had the chance to paint, listen and learn.
Over the past 4 years my well of inspiration has run dry as I’ve chased the news and put together timely videos. When I began publishing deep dives I was still nourished by all those years of immersing myself in the words and ideas of learned people combined with my original findings and linkages. Now, I am saturated by mere sound bites –opinion columns, tweets and tabloid videos. Those are not nourishment, those are vending machine snacks. Without wanting to sound over-dramatic the word that comes to mind when I think about all of this is ‘poisoned.’
In short: I first need to detox, then take time to feed my mind, soul and body better intellectual and spiritual food. I am doing that now and loving it. (see pic for my current endeavours)
2. Once again I seem to be alone in my understanding of what’s going on. That’s not to say that I’m right and everyone else is wrong, it’s meant to say that my own perspective on it is not the same as others.’ More and more lately my ‘take’ on things is at odds with the general consensus on every side. Further, since I am a genuine person who doesn’t like to paper-over my feelings for the sake of going-along, I am finding it difficult to produce work that will inform/uplift my audience. Judging from the letters I receive I don’t believe people need any more speculation or bad news and in some ways that’s all I’d have to offer if I were to go online with my thoughts. In short: I don’t know what to say or how to say it right now.
Finally I will admit that there are personal reasons why I am silent at the moment. I would like to live my life in accordance with my inner guidance system but for various reasons I can’t move forward and I’m struggling to chart a course. I am working to overcome that but man oh man these are some tricky waters to navigate. Some days I feel I might drown, others I sail on calm seas. I’m sure you all share this experience.
I will return with videos as soon as I can.
In the meantime I’m keeping my website updated with material from around the internet and hope you’ll find those items informative and interesting.
God bless you all.
Polly
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Dagny
25 Jan 2022
Thanks for this. It's good to know why you haven't been posting, and to get a little bit of your background. Mine is unbelievably similar - voracious reader since a young girl, unquenchable curiosity, arguing with all my liberal professors in college. An intellectual stay at home mother spending my days painting and listening to books and lectures and talk radio. Knowing too much for small talk. I see patterns, too, and fear it might be time to head for the hills to try and escape what's coming. What's already here. Thanks for all your great content, Polly. Godspeed.
Arnaud Babillon
25 Jan 2022
Dear Polly, I'm a french lover of your terrific work for the truth.
It's perfectly understandable that you need a break after so long a time into the swamp.
Take a deep breath, heal your soul. You deserve this time for yourself. God bless you ! Arno
It's perfectly understandable that you need a break after so long a time into the swamp.
Take a deep breath, heal your soul. You deserve this time for yourself. God bless you ! Arno
Paul
25 Jan 2022
Dear Polly,
I felt so in tune with what you're writing; please feel my kindest love and deep appreciation for the great harvest and efforts and for the ongoing quality of your inquisitive mind and human loving heart. Take your time and return to arts regularly as I'll be checking on any news regularly, just as I've been doing for the past yeear. It's a great question what might be wisest next in the face of so many incredible lies and thruths having been exposed already. What's left to do, but await inspiration from within? Always welcome to contact me for whatever question. From the heart, Paul (from Holland, the heart of the WEF-takeover of Europe)
I felt so in tune with what you're writing; please feel my kindest love and deep appreciation for the great harvest and efforts and for the ongoing quality of your inquisitive mind and human loving heart. Take your time and return to arts regularly as I'll be checking on any news regularly, just as I've been doing for the past yeear. It's a great question what might be wisest next in the face of so many incredible lies and thruths having been exposed already. What's left to do, but await inspiration from within? Always welcome to contact me for whatever question. From the heart, Paul (from Holland, the heart of the WEF-takeover of Europe)
Arnie
25 Jan 2022
Hello Polly I so enjoy your work and have from very early. It does bless me that you are giving time to let the Lord heal your soul. This life can damage it so deeply. I love to study Jesus’s word about allowing the Holy Spirit into our hearts. Most hold on to the hurts and being unforgiving we only hurt ourselves. I believe that is why Jesus found it so important to even forgive those mocking Him that had just murdered Him. Be Bless dear one Arnie.
Reinaard Keijzer
25 Jan 2022
Dear Polly,
In the first place I would like to thank you for the excellent work you do. I have seen all your contributions to Covid ant other aspects since the beginning of 2020 and I like the way how you connect all the important dots.
Your past seems to be very similar with mine, I started reading the books from Erich von Däniken in the mids of 1975 and got interested in ancient history. I developed a kind of helicopter view due to the fact that the media tries you to focus on one point and that's not necessary the truth. My youngest son will become 18 in March and have discussions with him since he was 10 or 11 years old. I told him all the time, to take nothing for granted when it is on TV, Radio or News Paper. I told him to ask him selves why do I see or hear this now, what was in past and what happened after the event. And not to forget: cui bono? (who benefits?) I would like that people raise their children in a way that they ask questions in stat of following the governments without doing so. And to do so them selves. I have my questions about many things that has happened during my lifetime and my conclusion is, that there were many false flag operations that 80% of the populations do think that the narrative was genuine, but unfortunately it wasn't. I like what you do and I you should take your time for what ever reason, you need it. We have a lot in common.
In the first place I would like to thank you for the excellent work you do. I have seen all your contributions to Covid ant other aspects since the beginning of 2020 and I like the way how you connect all the important dots.
Your past seems to be very similar with mine, I started reading the books from Erich von Däniken in the mids of 1975 and got interested in ancient history. I developed a kind of helicopter view due to the fact that the media tries you to focus on one point and that's not necessary the truth. My youngest son will become 18 in March and have discussions with him since he was 10 or 11 years old. I told him all the time, to take nothing for granted when it is on TV, Radio or News Paper. I told him to ask him selves why do I see or hear this now, what was in past and what happened after the event. And not to forget: cui bono? (who benefits?) I would like that people raise their children in a way that they ask questions in stat of following the governments without doing so. And to do so them selves. I have my questions about many things that has happened during my lifetime and my conclusion is, that there were many false flag operations that 80% of the populations do think that the narrative was genuine, but unfortunately it wasn't. I like what you do and I you should take your time for what ever reason, you need it. We have a lot in common.
Smile
25 Jan 2022
I think you'd enjoy listening to Total Onslaught series by Walter Veith, while you paint...
Rev. 14.
(There is nothing new under the sun).
May God continue to richly bless you, Polly, and thank you.
Maranatha!
Rev. 14.
(There is nothing new under the sun).
May God continue to richly bless you, Polly, and thank you.
Maranatha!