It's All Fun and Games Until Somebody Loses an 'I'
Some of you may have noticed that I haven’t uploaded a video in a couple of weeks. I’m writing now to ask you to be patient with me and to tell you that I’m doing okay, not to worry. In this letter to you I’d like to explain a few things and give you a peek into my past and present. I’ve been asked many times about my research methods, and it’s been speculated here and there on the internet that I must have partners because, quote, “there’s no way she can do that all by herself.” Well, here’s the truth.
I do work alone and except for the odd article here and there that people have sent me via email I get my own leads and follow my own instincts to gather every piece of information that I use in my videos. I make all the graphics and do all the editing. Personally I don’t see why this is so unbelievable to anyone. I think the reason it may seem so is because I can draw on a wealth of material quite quickly and I have a wide range of knowledge in a variety of subject areas across a fairly long span of history. This is because of my past habits, not necessarily because of any unique methods of research.
Before I began posting videos in about March 2016 I had been an artist – a painter. Visual artists can tell you that this work is somewhat meditative and as such it is conducive to learning. While my hands and a part of my brain were occupied by the canvas I would listen to audiobooks, interviews and lectures on a wide variety of topics. It so happened that I had always been interested in ‘high weirdness’ so at first those were the topics I gravitated to before moving on to try to gain a deeper understanding of the world around me.
But I have to go back in time for a minute.
As a girl of 12 or 13 I read Erich Von Daniken’s Chariots of the Gods which blew my mind. A couple of years later I got to hear a friend’s family discussions about the unusual elements of the Kennedy Assassination and the Moon Landings which introduced me to the idea that recent history might not be what it seems. Part of my university education alerted me to the various ways in which ‘science’ had been and continued to be used to shape cultures and societies (this was before universities became indoctrination centers for the official narratives). My curiosity was always active, but after I left school and became a mother a lot of that got put on the back burner as my time and energy were monopolized by full time work, home maintenance and child rearing.
When my child got a little older and no longer needed (nor wanted) much of my attention I took up painting again and combined this with the wonders of the internet. I began with forbidden archeology and the mysteries of Egypt – these were fascinating to me as I marveled at all that was hidden from mainstream education. Most of all I wondered why. Why was the scope of education so repetitive and boring when there were so many things they could be bringing to students!?
After I ventured down those paths I began to look at the terror attacks of 9/11.
9/11 led me somehow to MKUltra, and then the Franklin Cover-Up. Then Operation Paperclip, Aaron Russo, Bill Cooper, Max Igan, Alex Jones, Central Banking, etc etc. In short I started to see the Matrix, and was beginning to learn how to read it.
After I gorged myself on those topics I went deeper and began listening to speakers and lecturers in biology, psychology, history, economics, religion, mathematics, energy – these things were often way above my head but over the years I learned the vocabulary, then the theories, the findings and finally could see the interconnectedness of these disciplines. In fact I began to feel that I saw the interconnectedness better than any of the individual specialists I was learning from. They were siloed, myopic. I wasn’t.
The frustration I began to encounter was that I had absolutely nowhere to discuss any of this. Inside I was very well read and had so many intellectual curiosities but in day-to-day life I was Mom, wife, daughter, pal, office drone who should know her place and stop talking about “weird, boring, irrelevant scary” things and stick to picking out tiles for the new bathroom or admiring the tiles someone else had recently installed.
Thankfully at that time I still found common ground with most people in my life. Indeed we *could* still talk about bathroom tiles … or vacations, movies, music, cooking, home renovation projects, etc without any trouble. For a long while I managed my ‘double life’ keeping my research life private like a spy would have to do but still enjoying the company of friends, family and society.
As I learned more I could see more patterns - I could project into the future, so to speak. That’s when things became troublesome for me. I felt I could see where society was heading and this naturally affected the way I planned, the way I communicated. It put up barriers between me and the people around me though I wasn’t really aware of it at the time. All I knew was that sometimes, for seemingly no reason, I would trigger people into blank stares or shock or (worst of all) “concern” for my well being. You see, I kept forgetting that they didn’t know the things I knew. I must have sounded like an alien to them, or a stranger, or even just a worry wart who was harshing their mellow instead of cheering them on for taking out a reverse mortgage (or some such dangerous credit instrument.)
Believe me, many were the times I’d stop and ask myself if I was the problem. Was I being indoctrinated into some kind of cult or being groomed into semi-insanity through the media I was consuming? Because although I felt perfectly sane I could feel a shift happening – a divide opening up between myself and the culture I’d always lived in and thrived on. To this day I perform these reality checks. I ask “What do I know *for sure?*” Back then the answers ranged from “I know house prices are skyrocketing for no valid reason and this is Big Trouble.” Or “I know the culture is beginning to become toxic.” Or “I know they are actively eliminating Christianity from the public sphere.” Or “I know they are lying about 9/11 and if they’ll lie about that what won’t they lie about?” I also knew that 99% of the people around me couldn’t see any of that, and they didn’t want to see.
In 2022, amid all the noise and fearmongering the answer which keeps me grounded is:
“I know that they are trying to force people to take an experimental genetic therapy and I know they are censoring a great deal of information and opinion.”
That’s enough for me to understand that my questioning mind is still sane and my concern is righteous.
Okay – what does any of this have to do with me not producing videos at the moment?
The problem is twofold.
1. It’s been years now since I have had the chance to paint, listen and learn.
Over the past 4 years my well of inspiration has run dry as I’ve chased the news and put together timely videos. When I began publishing deep dives I was still nourished by all those years of immersing myself in the words and ideas of learned people combined with my original findings and linkages. Now, I am saturated by mere sound bites –opinion columns, tweets and tabloid videos. Those are not nourishment, those are vending machine snacks. Without wanting to sound over-dramatic the word that comes to mind when I think about all of this is ‘poisoned.’
In short: I first need to detox, then take time to feed my mind, soul and body better intellectual and spiritual food. I am doing that now and loving it. (see pic for my current endeavours)
2. Once again I seem to be alone in my understanding of what’s going on. That’s not to say that I’m right and everyone else is wrong, it’s meant to say that my own perspective on it is not the same as others.’ More and more lately my ‘take’ on things is at odds with the general consensus on every side. Further, since I am a genuine person who doesn’t like to paper-over my feelings for the sake of going-along, I am finding it difficult to produce work that will inform/uplift my audience. Judging from the letters I receive I don’t believe people need any more speculation or bad news and in some ways that’s all I’d have to offer if I were to go online with my thoughts. In short: I don’t know what to say or how to say it right now.
Finally I will admit that there are personal reasons why I am silent at the moment. I would like to live my life in accordance with my inner guidance system but for various reasons I can’t move forward and I’m struggling to chart a course. I am working to overcome that but man oh man these are some tricky waters to navigate. Some days I feel I might drown, others I sail on calm seas. I’m sure you all share this experience.
I will return with videos as soon as I can.
In the meantime I’m keeping my website updated with material from around the internet and hope you’ll find those items informative and interesting.
God bless you all.
Polly
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Connie
25 Jan 2022
Hi Polly, you are such a blessing to us first and foremost! Over the years you have given us so many amazing and informative videos. It has to take a toll on you just digging through all that evil and deceitful garbage and then put it into amazing videos to inform us, warn us and wake us up and I thank you so much for every video. I'm sure for most of us knowing the truth is taking a toll on us as well in some form or fashion (me anyways, still does). We ALL need to love a lot more, enjoy God's beauty and do something we love to do while we still can. You have provided us with so much MEAT to chew on and the fruit you have accumulated is massive in my opinion. I pray sister all is well with you, you deserve a well needed break. We all need to take a step back and put the whole picture in perspective and consider what is next for us all. Be blessed and know that God loves you and so do we!! 💞
Patty Love
25 Jan 2022
Hello Polly, Thank you for posting today and letting us know you are okay. I've been looking nearly every day for new videos and concerned of your long absence. I'm in Australia, yes it is crap her but it depends how you navigate this pysops. I now use a dumb phone, no QR ability or google tracking and my old smart phone is at home for texting and receiving long messages. My husband and I were never fussed on restaurants and clubs, so we didn't miss it anyway. Instead we go to the beach, invite like minded friends for dinner. We also shop at quieter shops who know us and don't say anything about not wearing a mask and walking right past their check in. I know this is not going away, so the hard push in Australia is the digital ID and basically it is here but voluntary for now. I can see this a problem for small business, except if they introduce digital currency then we will all be screwed. I've started to collect $5 notes, lets say we still continue to use cash in a parallel society. There are other solutions, schools and gardening groups, which I am part of too. This scamdemic is bad but it has its upside and I wanted to learn to play drums and play in a band and I am trying to do that too. I was a teacher and now working as a cleaner, sorting and decluttering homes for people which is a satisfying job. I still hope to teach art and photography, possibly in smaller groups at venues like scout halls and outdoors. Going to send you a parcel soon. Patty xx
PJ Fleischer
25 Jan 2022
Dear Polly,
Boy oh boy, have you ever touch people deeply, me included.
God Bless you and your family.,
PJ
Boy oh boy, have you ever touch people deeply, me included.
God Bless you and your family.,
PJ
Mike
25 Jan 2022
I started digging deep when trump announced running. Learned to much to fast which sent me down a different path, overwhelmed. I am experiencing some of the same as you. You have my vote
Elvis Dennard
25 Jan 2022
Thank you, Polly for all that you do. There is nothing wrong in taking some time for yourself. You've been an inspiration to many, with your wealth of knowledge. I too have travelled paths similar to yours. It's good to know that we are not alone. But there are times when we have to take time to detox and heal. We go about life filling cups for others while ours run dry. Not sure how many years ago I found you on the internet. I've laughed with you, and I've cried. But I always came away knowing more than I did before. You've become like family. I worry when I don't see your posts. Pray for you always. Thanks for giving us the heads up. Yep, I've been checking. looking for another video and starting to get worried about your well-being. I'm too much of a mother-hen. Lol You've never let us down. Always on point and accurate. So, my friend, do whatever you need to do. Just know that we all love and care for you. Many thanks, and Peace out.
Ralph Hull
25 Jan 2022
Dear Polly I am relieved and most happy to hear that you are well, because your absence this past couple of weeks has caused me to worry for your wellbeing ...given the dystopian world we are experiencing right now. It is great that you are now taking some time out for yourself to relax, heal, meditate...and just be you. God bless you Polly, and thank you so much for your courage in bringing the ..truth and new ideas and concepts to people all over the world. I say take all the time you need for yourself...much love to you and your loved ones...it is just great to know you are doing well.
Ralph Hull
Ralph Hull