I'm Still Alive and Free

I'm Still Alive and Free

Just a quick note of explanation for my regular audience.

I haven't made a new video in a long time and website updates have become irregular. For proof-of-life (hehe) you might want to follow my "associate" on Twitter. (see: (4) Mrs. Smith (@FringeViews) / Twitter )

Many of you know I had intended to take a break in January but put it off to cover the Trucker Convoy in Canada. It was a very important moment for my country so I used every last bit of energy I had to do reports about it at the time. After the convoy coverage I did the one WEF Global Shapers video because I felt the information was important as it gave the public a chance to pinpoint exactly who they could track and approach in their local areas. I was glad to see that information spread far and wide! Thank you to everyone who jumped on that topic and contributed with their own research, sharing the video, etc.

After that Global Shapers report went out, I ran out of gas.

Look, I know these moaning-type posts must be getting boring for you. It's not a subject I want to be writing about, believe me, but I think an explanation is warranted after such a long absence. My apologies if the following comes off as self-indulgent but there are those who I know are worried about me or who are wondering whether or not I'm gone for good so this post is for them. (God bless all of you for your genuine care, concern and connection. I am so grateful and blessed beyond words to have such a wonderful group around me.)

Let me start by acknowledging something important that is missing from the bulk of commentary in this day and age: we are living in a time of disorientation, loss, grief, desperation, information overload, and (mostly falsified) existential terror. We are being tortured, and torture works. People lose themselves. People acquiesce to all sorts of things they didn't think possible under normal circumstances. People go into shock. People give up, they cave in, and people die. Even though torture always succeeds in changing a person, it is not all negative in the end. I would never, ever advocate for torture and believe it to be a great evil, so don't mistake my message here. But there are some individuals who become stronger in some ways from the experience. Changed, and mostly negatively so, but having been forged in the fire their resolve hardens and becomes unbreakable. During the period of torture, however, each individual suffers in different measure according to his or her own constitution. Like it or not, that is where we are now. We are all still enduring the torture. What has been forced upon us for the past two (or more) years has been and continues to be a destruction of society, economy, culture, family, faith and individuals. Whatever stage you're in at the moment, however you are personally dealing with the torture I'm sure you will be able to relate to some of what I'm about to write.

Without getting into details, I can share that I've been lost in the Land of Deep Mourning for a while now. At first, even though the Covid Craziness was horrifying, I had been able to face it because my personal world remained intact. I had a sheltered island to retreat to while the surrounding sea was roiled by fear, doubt and uncertainty. For about 16 months following March 2020 I was able to see, research and deliver all the ugly news without it eating away at my heart and soul. I went to sleep at night peacefully because I felt that from my island I could perhaps help to inform people and thus help bring sanity back to society with my little contributions. This foundation - my island - had been all I needed to be able to carry on staring into the abyss, bring you reports, and even have a chuckle from time to time.

In September my island sunk into the deep. I can't tell you what happened for the sake of privacy though I dearly wish to dilute the exquisite pain contained in the story by pouring it out of me and into the hearts of all who read it. To do so would be selfish, though, so I choose to contain it within. Suffice to say that it was a blindside. The facts took weeks to fully set in and the emotional rollercoaster has not come to a stop yet. Since September I've been dealing with the typical stages of grief - denial, anger, bargaining and depression. Since this wasn't a death there's not been an end point. I can't accept it because the future is still unfolding. Maybe instead of 'acceptance' which is supposed to be the final stage of grief I will have to learn to live with it in another way.

In any case, what I found was that I couldn't look at the news any more. All of it was (is?) too painful. I could (can) barely interact with people. Who will I be when I come out the other end of this? How much of this is me being over-dramatic? What do I want for the future and am I even in control of this death/rebirth that I feel I'm going through?

Coincidentally (or probably not) my physical health began to deteriorate as well. It is mostly my eyes, as it was when I'd tried to escape Ontario and drive part way across the country. (Is this God or the Adversary stepping in I wonder?) Perhaps it is related to the fact that everything is twice as difficult to do now but my energy level has plummeted to a concerning level. What with the medical system here having bottomed out - not only will doctors not see patients in the office (hello Great Reset & Telehealth) - but I'm dubious in the extreme about interacting with it anyway.

As you can probably guess much of my work time is spent reading so with very blurry vision, well, you can guess how that has impacted my routine. And not just for reading, of course, but for all aspects of life. Perhaps de to the psychological factors in play I have found that when I try to work I feel nauseated and shaky, like I've been through a form of aversion therapy (torture, maybe.) On the other hand not working and not producing has also been very difficult. This is the basic shape of the hole I'm trying to climb out of with the help of distance, prayer and reflection.

As I type today I believe I'll be able to make a video soon, God willing. I'm feeling a little better lately and I've worked out some 'Mad Max' solutions for my ever-changing vision (see pic). Just a few days ago I got a new pair which works today but may not work a week from now. Luckily I have kept almost every pair of glasses I have ever worn, so I have material to work with. 🙂 Hey - it's a head start on the coping skills we'll all need in the 'you-will-own-nothing-and-be-happy' future, right? I can be the hobo optician. Ha!

Once again I apologize for making a post that is all about me and my problems (cringe) but as I said I've been away long enough that my monthly subscribers and other supporters were owed an honest explanation for my absence.

Thanks for reading, and don't forget to check out that twitter link. Mrs. Smith would be happy to see you.

God bless,

Polly

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Warm Regards

12 Apr 2022

Dear Polly, I have enormous respect for your work and I want to thank you for your contributions over the years. You are also a strong and thoughtful writer. I encourage you to write a book about your experiences; perhaps starting with voice recordings until things stabilise a little more. Take your space and take your time to heal. On another note, after reading some of the other posts I am not surprised to read that so many commenters have experiences as targeted individuals. Catherine Austin Fitts was herself targeted and says that much of the targeting that goes on is customised AI targeting (ie. Cambridge Analytica). It makes sense that some of this targeting would be sensory, so you are wise to disconnect for a time. Perhaps you can find a way to continue your research via a more stealthy approach. Public wifi connection only, new and completely unlinked, dedicated laptop that you reformat back to scratch every week? (This once worked well for someone I was close to.) In the meantime, you can hear Catherine talk about her experience here: https://brandnewtube.com/watch/globalism-in-the-new-multipolar-world-what-next-for-the-west_vSeHhuHwWRstoJO.html. The whole thing is ver good, but she starts talking about her own experience just after 1:12:00. God bless you, Polly and be well again soon.

Tony

12 Apr 2022

🙏

LA Parks

12 Apr 2022

My dearest Polly, thank you so kindly in providing your update. I had started to get worried about the lack of videos and exposure but completely understand the necessity to take care of you and your health. Your research and videos have been so helpful, extensive, invaluable and appreciated. The high and exhilaration I received from your paper bag mask; of which I made one with eye lashes to use when a mask was requested was a highlight in these past 2+ years of the scam dem ick. I am not part of twitter but may have to join just to watch what wonderful things I am learn from Mrs. Smith. Wishing you and Mr. St. George (loved those videos along with your walks outside) all the best in health and happiness. Your vision and insight is astounding and a big thank you for all that you have done. Blessings xoxoxox LA

Taji Ra'oof Nahl

12 Apr 2022

Peace be with you and your, Amazing Polly . May G-D reward you for your services to humanity. AMEEN.

Charlie Bonati

12 Apr 2022

Thanks, Polly your spot on information that has been so helpful to me. Your videos are what all of our future needs, GOD willing. Total truth, effectively laid out, leaving no holes for the unjust to wiggle out of for eternity. The Lord has blessed you with a valuable gift, you have done a perfect job with your gift, alone by blessing me. My point is your work can never be un written and it will be used to explain the past to all the brain dead in the future. Take your time and never give up, your information is a story given by GOD through you to all that exist today and all that can learn from the past in the hopeful future!

Herbert Keßler

12 Apr 2022

Hi Polly,
I'm glad to read your message. Your work is so precious to me. If we persist long enough we will win. :-) Take care of your health, your relationships and your work.
Much love to you
Herbert

Tory Welling

12 Apr 2022

Thank you, Polly, so much of what you have expressed here resonates with me. I was very concerned about you and not seeing any new posts feared the worst. Those of us who hang on your every keystroke feel that we are old friends. Be kind to yourself, take care of your health to the best of your ability. Know that there is a huge family out in webbernet land that are praying for you and that we all are able to weather this awful storm.
God-speed
Tory

Wendy Gehrig

12 Apr 2022

"Watch the Water"

Hallo dear Polly,
Thank you for your courage to report TRUTH!!

OK, today very early, Tuesday 12April'22, this HUGE BOOM BOOM BOOM whistle blowing documentary and interview were released.

You have the means and contacts to share this EVERYWHERE, and cause a bombshell headline about this SCAM demic.

Dr Brian Ardis reveals to Stew Peters...47mins "Watch the Water" CV19
https://www.bitchute.com/video/b7KU2FVWZWxE/

Dr Ardis in interview with Mike Adams revealing detailed research papers on which his documentary revelation is based.
https://www.bitchute.com/video/maqFwI5wuAsJ/

This is sickening perverse evil....

This MUST get out to the global public......you can help do this!!!! Please.

Respect and regards,
Wendy Gehrig, expat living permanently in Thailand
Tel: +6684 5575 750
FB: https://www.facebook.com/AndamanWendy

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